it's about time

i won't write in capital letters. they look selfish. like saying i'm important, notice me. you must see me. so i won't write in capital letters. i won't write in paragraphs eeither. they waste the spac3. i won't correct my typo error. because i want to see mu mistakes and learn from them. if there's anything i ever regert it is not kissing you when i feel like it. because now, it has become the farthest, it is a place i could never arrive at again. it scares me that it will happen again. that i will lose someone else the way i lose you. not even having the chance to say goodbye. the hollow in me just gets deeper. its just scary to think that this will happen again and again. i wante to resolve to never loving anyone anymore. but i have no control of my heart. no control of what will happen. should i just lock the door and stay inside forever/. just look out the window and see the rain, the sun and the rainbow. and maybe juast maybe. watch you passing by with that nonchalant look on ypur face.