who am i? i am nobody.
i just feel super crappy. i should go to sleep. it's 15 after 3 in the morning.
i shouldnt post this in this blog. didnt fit the pofile.
but i just feel crappy. couldn't care less. i want to stare right into your eyes, try to tower over you, -i know i would need to tiptoe- and scream it to your face, 'you know, right? you know.' and i want to make it as accusative as possible.
i am talking to you. yes you.
YOU KNOW, RIGHT? YOU KNOW.
im too tired. but i just cant get an effing sleep.
these measly things are being thought over too much to do any good. demit.
and him. he cant even say it when he disagree. crumbs. hek.
Oh. you stupid orthodox. go to sleep now. please.
or i would have to knock you dead my self.
Friday, November 13, 2009
i won't write in capital letters. they look selfish. like saying i'm important, notice me. you must see me. so i won't write in capital letters. i won't write in paragraphs eeither. they waste the spac3. i won't correct my typo error. because i want to see mu mistakes and learn from them. if there's anything i ever regert it is not kissing you when i feel like it. because now, it has become the farthest, it is a place i could never arrive at again. it scares me that it will happen again. that i will lose someone else the way i lose you. not even having the chance to say goodbye. the hollow in me just gets deeper. its just scary to think that this will happen again and again. i wante to resolve to never loving anyone anymore. but i have no control of my heart. no control of what will happen. should i just lock the door and stay inside forever/. just look out the window and see the rain, the sun and the rainbow. and maybe juast maybe. watch you passing by with that nonchalant look on ypur face.